Mending a Broken Friendship

About a year ago, I had fall out with my one and only best friend, Quinn, resulting in she flew back to the United States without me seeing her off. We then did not talk for quite a while and I thought it was what is best for us, not talking to each other as per what she wanted. Although, she did message me on my birthday but the wound was unhealed and the hurt still was craved inside, therefore I didn't reply her. And so I didn't message her on her birthday.

A few months later, in December, she sent me an email, apologising for what happened between us as well as congratulating me on graduating. Again, my feelings were still bruised, and probably also my ego was hurt, I did not reply her. At the same time, I also needed some time to think about what I want to say, and I took quite a while apparently that on last Saturday she Facebook messaged me. And again, I did not reply just yet.

Until this afternoon, I woke up from my nap and thinking that I would want to work this friendship out. So I grabbed my phone and replied her message. What I said, though, wasn't exactly what I originally wanted to say should I had replied her email. Rather, I told her that I have put what had happened behind us and am willing to reconnect and mend the broken friendship.

It took me quite a while indeed to overcome the agonize until I realised that friendship is an important thing for me, especially the friendship I had with her. But most importantly the reason is, because I miss my best friend. I was told that it is hard to find the "best friend" and that is true, from my experience at least.

So we talked a bit and agreed that we do still have to sit and talk and sort things out of what had gone wrong between us. I have to admit that it was a little awkward now that it has been too long. But we also agreed to take one step at a time to fix the relationship. And honestly, I'm relieved that she, too, is willing to keep the friendship.

After this long I feel like a ten thousand kilos burden is lifted up from my shoulders. True enough, ever since I received her email I have been trying to avoid dealing with the problem and it has been haunting me, nurturing an anxiety inside me. I'm really putting a great hope for us to be able to work this out and go back to the way we used to before. It may take some time, but time is indeed what we need.

Until next post.